Trashing my plans...

I am such a planner. I love to be prepared, to have a plan. I've always had a plan for my life. I knew when I wanted to get married, when I wanted to have babies. It's so amazing that my life has NEVER turned out according to my plans. Recently, I was put on bed rest for complications during my pregnancy. It's been quite the hitch in my plan. My plan had been to work until it was time for the baby to come. And I just knew that my baby would be born 2 weeks early so I wouldn't have to be miserable until the 40 week mark. I just knew that my pregnancy wouldn't be complicated. After all, I was healthy and not overweight. I never had blood pressure issues or any other health issues. Again, my plans have been foiled. So here I am, sitting in my PJ's on the couch, puffy hands and face, taking my blood pressure all day long, taking blood pressure medicine, and peeing into a jug that I have to turn into the dr's office in the morning.
I could sit here and be frustrated. Ok, sometimes I DO sit here frustrated. I could be angry that I'm stuck in the house or angry that I may very well get put back in the hospital tomorrow if my urine looks bad, or I can just accept that it's not about my plans. I can plan all I want, but if that isn't what God has purposed, then my plans are pointless. My plans to get pregnant before I was 30 was pointless. My plans to have an easy pregnancy were pointless. God has had other plans for me. And his plans come with purpose behind them. I may not always know what that purpose is, but it is true and it is for my good.
All through my life, I have seen people try to guess what God has in store for them, for their churches, for their families. But there is never any way we can forsee the future or know what God is going to end up doing. He always ends up going so much further beyond what we ever could have imagined. It may take us down a road that we never intended going down. But it is always SO MUCH BETTER than what we ever could have planned for ourselves. So we can keep planning, but in the end it is God's will that prevails, not ours.

Proverbs 21:30 "There is no wisdom, no insight, no plan, that can succeed against the Lord."

If we could learn to pray this.. "God, I just want YOUR plan.", well.. I think we would never be surprised at the outcomes. We would never be disappointed at the road getting there.